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New AIM Screen Name!!!! [08 Dec 2006|07:01pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I have a new AIM screen name, all, as I said in my subject....


And no, the "xxx" is not because I'm pathetic, it's because that name with one "x" as well as two "x's" is taken! Go figure!

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Personality Disorders? [21 Nov 2006|03:42am]
[ mood | a bit concerned.... ]

Whoa, should I be worried?
Honestly though, I think most of these "symptoms" apply to anyone.
Take the test! It's interesting!

Paranoid Personality Disorder:High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:Moderate
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:High
Borderline Personality Disorder:Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:Very High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:High
Dependent Personality Disorder:High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:Low

-- Take the Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Info --

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BYE BYE REPUBLICAN MAJORITY!!!! [10 Nov 2006|02:47am]
[ mood | satisfied ]

I'm so happy that the Democrats took control of the House and the Senate. I can't say that I approve of all of the Democrats' beliefs, but it is certainly an epic improvement over the GOP with all their 1984 crap. How the fuck can that party still hide behind the concept of "small government?" The Democrats definitely beat them in that arena nowadays. I miss the Republican philosophy of keeping the government out of our bedrooms and our checkbooks. Seems that's as dead as the Democrats' support of slavery.

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I GOT IN!!!! [25 Oct 2006|09:09pm]
[ mood | delighted ]

Not sure I'm going there, but it is the most elite school I applied to, and it's a small, really cool public university. Not many people seem to have heard of it, but it looks like a really good school, and I was so sure I wouldn't get in. Ah! What a happy development!

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I HATE CHRISTIANS!!! [23 Oct 2006|07:52pm]
[ mood | scared ]

Jesus fucking Christ, this is why I hate my sister. She sent this to everyone in her address book:

Hello friends-

God has given me the chance to play a few more shows, and I wanted to invite you.

Both shows are free; please just buy something to support the coffee shops. THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO CONTRIBUTED TO THE C.D. FUND LAST TIME! WE COLLECTED $400!

The c.d. is progressing nicely. We're on the 4th song. I am still thankful to all contributions towards its completion.

1st show: Saturday, Oct. 28th 8-10, Plymouth Coffee Bean, 884 Penniman, Plymouth, Mi, 48170

This one is exciting to me. It's not a Christian venue and when I've been there, there've been lots of thirsty people. Please pray that God shows people who He is, and if you can come, please come with an attitude of expectancy. The Lord may want you to share Him with someone or just plain love on them:)

2nd show- Saturday, Dec. 16th 7-10, Divine Cafe, 2170 Cass Lake Rd., Keego Harbor, MI, 48320

This is a really special place too. Wonderful atmosphere.

Please come if you can, and feel free to pass this along to anyone you think would enjoy it.

Love in Christ,


Why?  Why?  Why the fuck?  I can't make this shit up; that was copy / paste, identical to the e-mail I received.  My sister is fucking CRAZY!  She has concerts left and right and CAN'T SING a single fucking note without making me cringe.

I've bolded all the parts I find particularly disturbing.

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No School! [20 Oct 2006|07:00pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Jesus Christ, is it awesome to have the day off! I slept like 10 1/2 hours, about twice the amount of sleep I usually get. Parent teacher conferences are fucking wonderful, not just because of the whole no school part, but because it's like 2 hours of teachers telling my father that I'm actually *gasP* somewhat intelligent, a notion that seems to absolutely alarm him. Well, fuck him. Not that it convinces him of anything, but it does make him a little less insulting for a while.
And I'm seeing "Nightmare Before Xmas" in 3D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't even wait. 6 hours, 20 minutes.....

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Me, Me, Me [24 Sep 2006|06:37pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

So, I'm absolutely THRILLED that I get tomorrow off AND to not have to work.  It's crazy, that I'm going to have an entire day to do whatever I want.  If anyone wants to hang out, call me, or comment, y'know.  I desperately miss like eight people.  
So, I have, hence far, filled out the following college applications online:
- Western Michigan University
- Eastern Michigan University
- Central Michigan University
- Michigan State University
- Grand Valley State University

Everyone says five is a lot, but I must call their attention to Gemma, Lil Miss Eleven Applications!  Man, do I wish I had the balls, cash, and prospects to fill out that many!  But yeah, I'm just keeping my options open.  I hope I get into all of them and have a wealth of choices, but it's more likely that I'll have two or three to pick from.  Who knows.  I might not get into any.  I mean, my essay was pretty shitty, and makes me look like a really horrible person.  I've always said I can't write about myself.  Not only is my life relatively boring, with pretty much everything interesting that's ever happened to me being really school inappropriate, but I have no ability to portray myself as a slightly decent person.  I always either flatter myself far too much, coming off as fake and pretentious, or list too few good qualities, making it sound almost like I'm writing about someone else that I don't know very well.  It's really a horrible skill to be so deficient in.  

If I don't get into Western, I'll kill myself though.  That's the school I most want to go to.

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School, School, School.... [20 Sep 2006|10:15pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

So, 3rd week of school.  And I must say, my classes are fairly easy, but I'm fucking up a bit nonetheless.  I forgot to turn in an important assignment (in one of my favorite classes.  Sheesh.) and to study for a test, so I'm implementing my old freshman strategy of writing everything on my wrist in permanent marker.  Of course, at work I risk every talkative customer commenting on it, but I'll live.

Anyway, I'm LOVING Accounting.  It's so easy I could cry.  It's literally just typing numbers into a computer program.  It's the best first hour I've ever had, because I'm permitted to listen to music while I work, and play computer games or check my e-mail after I'm done.  Mrs. Gambaro is my hero.  I love math that is more than distantly applicable to human life.  

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by the whole college application process.  I haven't even started my essay for Western, and since I plan to turn it in to all the other schools I apply to, just in case it makes me seem a little more human in their eyes, I have to wait to apply to the other colleges as well.  Jesus, I want to be fourteen again!  Whaaa.

The girl who sits behind me in Marketing needs to be euthanized.  It's fine if you want to talk all hour, but when someone politely asks you to stop and you refuse, you've officially become a total bitch.   I don't want to hear her inane little opinions on McDonalds french fries or her observations about Jennifer Granholm as a "stupid bitch."  She just wants to hear her own voice all day long.  Honestly, confrontation is delicious when it comes to telling a girl like THAT what you think of her. 
I know that sounds disgustingly bitchy, but a lot of my comments have lately.  Perpetual PMS and lack of sleep is becoming my excuse lately.  Still, I feel really awful about it. 

So, we were talking about Existentialism in English today ( j'adore Mr. Gollon!), and everyone seemed to regard it as very depressing.  Basically, it's the philosophy that everyone is essentially alone, only what one experiences can be deemed true, and that passing time, choices, and uncertainty are the only things man can be sure of.  Honestly, I didn't find it to be all that bleak of an approach to life.  If people viewed the world this way, then there would be such a reduction of suffering in the world, I think, at least suffering caused by people to people.  I mean, it's so much worse to think that everything happens for a reason and that some supreme being is arranging things just so to culminate in a certain outcome.  That suggests a world governed by cruelty.  If all occurances in this world have a purpose, then those who are tortured to death, those who starve in third world countries, those who contract HIV in the womb and are brought into the world destined to be sickly, those people are just casualties of the "bigger picture."  If suffering is being allowed by someone or something in charge, then surely the world is a place trapped in cruelty, a place that can't escape a pattern of some living lives of pure agony and others owning yachts on the Riviera and ruling over a staff of 24.  Why can't it all be chance?  Why on earth must we believe that pain and anguish have purposes?  If that's the case, certain people are triumphing at the expense of others, and our divine ruler is okay with it.  
It's fine if you want to believe that there's a reason for it all, that there's a plan we're all meant to follow, but we need to accept that, for the most part, believing such things is a luxury.  To believe that, you likely have a life now that you can be comfortable with.  So many people don't.  So many people need to be worrying about how to keep their children alive for another day , and suggesting that there's some benevolent being who wants their lives to be that way seems very sinister to me.  
Anyway, forgive my juvenile Philosophy 101 crap.  It's just something I've been thinking about today.

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BRAND NEW LAYOUT!!!!! [28 Aug 2006|04:08am]
[ mood | satisfied ]

Well, it took about a decade, but I figured out the new overrides and FINALLY put together a new lj layout that I actually like.  It was literally about five hours of trial and error, but it's puuurrrrdy now, and what else do I have to do at 4 in the morning?  Feedback would be appreciated!  Let me know what you think!

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Nightmare at RHS [24 Aug 2006|01:52am]
[ mood | blah ]

My God, I don't even want to talk about registration.  It was so hellish, I think I've been scarred for life by the traumas I endured there.  Suffice it to say, I have to go back and do it again, after a wasted two hours of waiting in line.  I may be dead before I have my schedule.

Anyway, that experience has forced me into an all-consuming depression.  Forgive me.  I must go feel sorry for myself.

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Random Shit [17 Aug 2006|01:52am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Yeeeesh!  Why must summer be almost over?  This sucks!  
But tonight was fun.  I decided to go for a walk and deposit some paychecks, when I ran into Amila, cruising around with Tom and Kaneka (which is probably mispelled.)  Anyway, I hopped in, and we hung out in the park with Lauren, Kendra, and Evan, then proceeded to Lauren's house and watched "Degrassi."  It was fun, but I had to rush home to watch "Project Runway," naturally.  Ugh, this season sucks though.

I'm reeling right now from the knowledge that I'm soon going to have to start applying to colleges.  Grrrrreeeeaaaat.  With my pathetic 3.1, on the verge of a 3.2, I worry that I'm not likely to get into any good schools.  I mean, true I have a good ACT score, but I'm not sure that will outweigh my GPA.  Sigh.....  I don't like this colleg game.  I'm only 12 in my head.  I have another five years before I have to think about this shit.

So, I'm enjoying this "new" laptop with it's genuinely new charger cord.  I may just have to start writing a novel!

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LAPTOP!!!! [13 Aug 2006|10:08pm]
[ mood | okay ]

So, my dad essentially gave me a laptop.  It's an old one that he's had for ages, but it's still a laptop with internet access, and though it's not technically mine, I have exclusive use of it.  Okay, so it's not that great.  But it's big deal to ME, since my  family is dirt poor.  Anyway, the one drawback is that the charger he gave me for the laptop doesn't fucking work, so I have to wait for the new one we ordered to come in the mail, and I WANT IT NOW!!!!  Stupid useless old charger.  Damn it all.

Well, at least I (sort of) have a a laptop!

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I ♥ Amazon!!!! [11 Aug 2006|04:58pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

YayI I love Amazon.com!  Such fun!  Two of my items have already arrived: my silicone mp3 player case, which is pretty and makes my Zen look delicious (pss, ipods suck.)  and my "Pet Sematary" DVD, which is probably the most hilarious horror film ever made.  By the by, "cemetary" is mispelled on purpose.  Blame Stephen King, not me.  

I can't wait for the rest of my shit to come!  

If the creator of Amazon ever needs a blow job, he'll know who to contact!

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More Centipedes....Sigh.... [10 Aug 2006|07:54am]
[ mood | tired ]

So, it would appear that my basement (yeah, the one where my room is) is infested with centipedes.  There were about a dozen baby ones in my very short hallway, and a few HUGE live ones on the wall last night.  Yep, they're everywhere.  And since my fear of centipedes is borderline phobic, there's no way in Hell I'm going down in that basement any time soon.  There's nowhere else to sleep though except in my uncle's old tiny room upstairs, and there aren't any dark curtains or anything, so it's FAAAAAAR too bright to sleep.  I need it to be like pitch black.  Man alive, I'm sooooooo done with these traumatic centipede encounters.  They're keeping me up.  But I'm beyond tired now.  All efforts to sleep are futile.  They'll be sabotaged.  Apparently the world has decided that Jess and sleep are to be kept apart at all costs.  Thanks world!!!!  So, if this entry makes me sound like a dithering idiot, just keep in mind that I've gotten about four hours of sleep in the last 48 hours, which is VERY much below my average needs.  So be merciful for my retarded writing.

I'm off to watch "The Practice."  It's the first time in years I've been awake early enought to see it.  I'm awake at 8AM, why not take advantage of the now off air legal dramas?

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[ mood | scared ]

Although I'm proud to say that I've overcome my fear of most creepy-crawlies, I haven't done it as completely as I'd like.  My one GREAT fear in life is still centipedes.  This poses quite a problem, as my bedroom's in the basement, the area of the house most infested with these disgusting creatures.  Just 5 minutes ago, I was sitting comfortably in my room watching the special features on my "Carrie" DVD, with the lights off.  I turned on a lamp to try to find some chapstick, and find the chapstick I did, with a centipede crawling over it on my nightstand!  ICK!!!!  Well, I had nothing to kill the damned thing with, and I doubt if I did, I'd have the presence of mind to find it.  So my immediate response was a loud, squeaky "EEP!"  Then I scurried out of my room.  I don't know how I'm going to manage to go back down there.  That fucking thing was just INCHES away from my pillow.  A nice, relaxing, horror-filled night has turned into a mini crisis, with REAL horror!  Whaaaaaaaaaah!  I HATE CENTIPEDES!!!!!


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Amazon Frenzy [07 Aug 2006|02:45pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

So, I've just made a few fun little amazon.com purchases.  Books, DVDs, and a protective silicone shell for my mp3 player.  I'm SOOOO excited.  I love being careless with my money.  What else is my job for?!

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Work..... [30 Jul 2006|11:53pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

So, I must say, having a job over the summer is shite.  I love the money, but getting up at 7am is something I should ONLY have to do during the school year, and probably not even then!  It's bull fucking malarchy.  Fuck, I'm mostly bitter about the second mandatory meeting in 2 weeks that I have to attend tomorrow.  It's fucking ridiculous.  I contribute nothing and the knowledge they provide me with benefits NONE!  I'm pissed at Ace.

At least I still have a few birthday presents to look forward to from my poor family members....

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HAPPY B-DAY TO ME [27 Jul 2006|03:39pm]
[ mood | okay ]

So, 'twas my birthday yesterday.  I am now officially 17.  It was a decent birthday.  I got some cool DVDs and a toy gun and some other little stuff.  And I got a yummy cake and pad-thai.  I can now see and R-rated movie without a legal guardian or adult over 21, so that's pretty sweet.  I'll have to remember to take advantage of that at some point.

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Happy End of Summer School to ME!!!! [22 Jul 2006|11:38am]
[ mood | ambivilent ]

So, I must say I'm DELIGHTED to be done with summer school right now.  It's fantastic.  I got a 97 or something, so that should boost my GPA as well.  Honestly, I'm very glad I took that class.  To be done with it is wonderful, and I likely wouldn't have gotten an A in it if taking the full semester class.  My own laziness would have gotten the better of me.  But I can buckle down for three weeks or so, no problem.

So, I'll be 17 in four days.  Not looking forward to that.  I don't much care for birthdays.  They always disappoint.  A year older, and nothing really accomplished.  THAT'S depressing.

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CUR-AZY SUMMER FUN [05 Jul 2006|08:56pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

So, summer gym today.  Fun, fun, fun!!!  Like crazy.  Ten more days to go, I'm afraid.  The last fucking thing I want is to go back tomorrow, but I know I have to.  I'll be glad to be done with it, but I'm not as fortunate as everyone else there.  All of them have the option of viewing the sheer comedy that is me attempting to play basketball.  What could be more entertaining?  Lucky bastards. 

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